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so i really get to graduate in december!!  i am so super pumped i can't even explain to you how stinkin excited i am!!  it has been a long journey and i can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel!!

however, the downside is that means i really have to grow up now and get a full time job and decide what the heck i am going to do with the degree i am getting

seriously i think i have been having an anxiety attack since i found out for sure yesterday...i couldn't sleep last night and i was up like every hour...my mind just wouldn't quit thinking about junk.  my heart was hurting like my chest was tight and i felt like my heart was racing but my pulse was normal...it was the weirdest thing!!

and to top it off next week i have 2 killer exams that i know i am going to fail

well that's all i got for now!!

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I need a job, I need a job....I really need a job for the summer because I really don't know how my bills will get paid if I don't find one soon!!!

So I am still struggling with the fact that I am 25, about to graduate only 7 more classes...21 hours...and yet I still feel like I have no direction in life...no man to marry when I graduate, and no job prospects to look forward too.  This just isn't where I thought that I would be by this time in my life!!

Don't get me wrong I have faith and trust in the path that God is leading me down, but at times I get impatient...and the human part of me takes over and wants to know everything, you know to be able to see it and plan for it and prepare myself for what lies ahead!!  I am such a preparer and I need ot be able to know what is coming at me so that I can be ready for it...but I guess God is trying to teach me patiene and to be spontaneous (sp?)!!

So anyway I guess that is what's on my mind right now!!

So here I am sitting in the LC lobby wasting time, supposed to be taking pictures for the yearbook but nobody wants to stop, so instead I will xanga!!

I have been really convicted by the books I have been reading lately.  My mom got me all these Christian singles books for Christmas...you think that is a hint she thinks I need to find a man??...but anyway I have been reading them and I realized that I do complain alot to God about being single and I ask him all the time when he is going to finally send me the One!!  So Ihave decided to try to just be content with my singleness and date who ever comes along that seems worthy...for now I am trying to get to know Doug better and determine if he is in fact worthy of me or not!!  Because my books have told me that God doesn't want me wasting my time on men who do not deserve it!!

So here goes me being single and loving it until Mr. Right comes along!!!

So here I am wishing I was so totally elsewhere!!!  I have a horrible class tonight that I really don't want to attend but I have to so whatever, I just wish I could go to the Mavs game instead!!  Oh well such is life!!

So I really can't wait for summer break!!  It's totally like Spring Break was just a big fat tease and now I still have to wait like forever before I actually get a real break!!

The wireless internet has seemed really slow today, anyone else notice??

Well I guess that's it for now, don't really have alot to say I guess so, later!!